I put so much trust into you and you threw it back in my face; even after everything I told you about my past and how I’ve been betrayed and abandoned so much. Since I was little, I was raised to believe that if I wanted to be loved then all I needed to do was love, but every day I struggle with the fear that I am alone and will always be that way. Please God, I know I’m being selfish but I need someone or something in my life that makes me happy again and is just simple.
Things Change
I use to watch How I Met Your Mother and get really excited about the story I would tell my kids, I started going out of my way to make sure I did spontanious romantic gestures for girls, but now when I watch the show after a few years I feel depressed that none of these encounters has led me to anything significant and I’m afraid that soon I may become jaded and lose faith in finding someone. I wish I had Ted Mosby’s unrelenting optimism.
“Good morning New York. I’m sorry to bother you. I’m not hungry. I do not want food or money, I just need a little support. I got dumped last week and I’m trying to give her space but I can’t do nothing. If you have any words of advice for me, a quote that resonates with you or a story about second chances, please raise your hand and I’ll come to you. I have sharpie markers and I’ll stay as long as it takes.”
